Sleepless

Well,

Just a quick update here.

having insomnia recently and i do not know why.

I was awake whole night

only until 6:30am I can finally sleep. Woke up an hour or two after that. 

No nightmares, no weird dreams

is 1:00am + now .

My brain is still very awake.

well, even if i go to bed now, I will still be awake until 6am So, there's no reason to go to bed now. 

It's been tough..

I don't know what to say.. no words can describe this feeling i feel in me.. 

I guess I should just wait for the right time to come.. :)

I wish that I could..

Think the only way to best describe my feelings is through music :

It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on

It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long

It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?

If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving

I remember the make-up running down your face

And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them

Like every single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia

And forget about the stupid little things

Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you

And the memories I never can escape

致 可爱的大家

爱
很复杂

不是每个人都可爱

受过的伤害

要爱？
真的很难

爱 要付出精神  时间
不是每个人都值得

但
你又有什么资格去判断
他  值不值得被爱呢？

你是谁？
你又值得被谁爱了？

愛是恆久忍耐，又有恩慈；愛是不嫉妒；愛是不自誇，不張狂，

不做害羞的事，不求自己的益處，不輕易發怒，不計算人的惡，

不喜歡不義，只喜歡真理；

凡事包容，凡事相信，凡事盼望，凡事忍耐。

愛是永不止息。

上帝
你是在开玩笑吗？

恒久忍耐？
凡事包容？
凡事忍耐？
凡事相信与盼望？

我怎么做到

爱

其实很简单

不是每个人都可爱

但是

其实每个人都有可爱的一面

我们都没资格去认定谁值得被谁爱

我也有限

我会生气

我会有讨厌人的时候

我会有被讨厌的时候

至少

在上帝的眼中

我是可爱的

我是宝贝的

亲爱的读者

其实你也是

你們願意人怎樣待你們，你們也要怎樣待人。

你們若單愛那愛你們的人，有什麼可酬謝的呢？就是罪人也愛那愛他們的人。

你們若善待那善待你們的人，有什麼可酬謝的呢？就是罪人也是這樣行。

你們若借給人，指望從他收回，有什麼可酬謝的呢？就是罪人也借給罪人，要如數收回。

你們倒要愛仇敵，也要善待他們，並要借給人不指望償還，你們的賞賜就必大了，你們也必作至高者的兒子；因為他恩待那忘恩的和作惡的。

爱那可爱的人

有什么困难

爱那对我们好的人

有什么困难啊

我的弟兄們，你們信奉我們榮耀的主耶穌基督，便不可按著外貌待人。

經上記著說：要愛人如己。你們若全守這至尊的律法，才是好的。

但你們若按外貌待人，便是犯罪，

多少次

我们以外表评论

一个人可爱的程度

多少次

我们自以为是

认为某某不值得我们爱

多少次

我们以为自己好伟大

多少次

其实

只要我们明白爱人如己

世界上就会少了许多

不可爱的人

你們聽見有話說：當愛你的鄰舍，恨你的仇敵。

只是我告訴你們，要愛你們的仇敵，為那逼迫你們的禱告。

上帝可爱吧？

总是让我们做那么困难的事

其实

爱很简单

爱要牺牲

即使被爱的对象多么不可爱

要为他祝福

靠自己呢

是一定不行的啦

人会累

会软弱

会跌到

会放弃

会失望

他對我說：我的恩典夠你用的，因為我的能力是在人的軟弱上顯得完全。所以，我更喜歡誇自己的軟弱，好叫基督的能力覆庇我。

爱

其实真的很简单

只要你爱的来源是对的

就是从神而来的

爱人

就像呼吸一样自然

爱人

就不看外表

爱

就把某某最好

最可爱的一面

带出来了

神=爱

愛是恆久忍耐，又有恩慈；愛是不嫉妒；愛是不自誇，不張狂，

不做害羞的事，不求自己的益處，不輕易發怒，不計算人的惡，

不喜歡不義，只喜歡真理；

凡事包容，凡事相信，凡事盼望，凡事忍耐。

愛是永不止息。

致  觉得自己不可爱的人

就是你們的頭髮也都被數過了；不要懼怕，你們比許多麻雀還貴重。

迷茫

一直以为自己放下了

直到被告白

才发现  原来

我一直在做的 是逃跑

因为面对

会发恶梦

心跳加速

冒冷汗

其实

凭什么…

因着初恋 对谎言

不论善意 或 恶意

都很抗拒

为什么 你明知道撒谎是不对的

也知道我接受不了

为什么

还一而再 再而三地 

考验我忍耐的底线 

是

是我笨

十个手指都数不清的谎言

暧昧

我

一直在原谅

一直在包容

一直为你找借口

对不起

我的错

宠坏了你

男神  你呢

把我从那谎言的噩梦中带出来

让我在你身上

投资了100%的信任

我对你 有100%的安全感

教导我许多东西

让我学会了独立  沟通  驾车

生活中的每个细节

都只有你最清楚

前任都不知道那么多

说我太善良

说怕会伤害我

……什么屁话

怎么突然消失了

怎么突然有了女朋友

怎么

为什么我就是生气不了

我哭不出来

对所有人的信任

直跌到谷底

痛

痛

痛

要我再相信人

呵

好像很困难

心

只为为我努力的人开

只为爱我疼我的人开

只为不滥用我的善良的人开

只为不撒谎的人开

只为全心全意待我的人开

You

Something you should know:

You were never a back-up plan and you never will be

You are the future 

You are The One and Only

You are the one that I want to spend my time with

You are the one that I want to share everything with

You are the one I can't afford to lose

**Heart You Deeply**

Learning to Let Go

It's been 71 day since those days

I dare not say that was completely miserable 

Nor will I say I was happy.

You were sincere before we started our relationship Which I though it will be the most beautiful relationship
I thought it will last..
I thought.
doesn't matter what i thought now.

Now it seems like we are never going back

I remember that day when i asked to break up.
i never mention about breaking up every time you hurt me. 
... well, maybe i did warn you about i may not be able to continue a relationship like this if this happen again
But again and again.. 
Forgive, Patience, Love
HOPE..
My friends pity me
You failed me, but i took a step back instead of confront.

Others may ask "Why don't you confront"
well, HAHAHA
How many times I've confronted ? How many times I'd talk to you about it?
What happen next?
I apologized for not capable to handle your ego. 
I apologized for not trusting in you which made you lie to me.
I apologized for being not good enough to you that you need other girls to satisfy your wants.
What a joke!
When I asked to break up, you were so shocked. 
You thought I'm going to be the HAPPY girlfriend and keep quiet for what you've done to hurt me?

I feel so relieved 
I do not need to be afraid anymore. 
Say goodbye to nightmares and to lies


This is the summary of the summarized summary. 

Faith - Hope - Love

Love Is In The Air

"You never know when you'll find 

What your heart is yearning for

All you seek could be there

Just a breath away"-- Barbie

!Happy Anniversary!

yesterday , 15th Jan 12:00a.m. was our anniversary! 

Super happy. hahaha..

Thank you

..for the LOVE you gave

..for CARING when I do not feel well

..for UNDERSTANDing when my emotional swings

..for being a LOYAL driver that never complain about distance

..for being a great MOVIE PARTNER 

..for STAYing after the ups and downs

..for all the JOKES you told to make me happy

..for PRAYING

..for EVERYTHING 

We both know we are still going through some downs

we are praying and searching the way

Things will be different, will be better

I still TREASURE the time we spent together

I still APPRECIATE the lessons we learnt from downs

Let Jesus Be The Center Of Our Relationship

"It's magic, when you are here beside me 
Close your eyes, and let me hold you tight 
Everything that I could ever need is 
Right here in my arms tonight "--Barbie