软弱 | 爱的需要

软弱跌倒的时候，我们的阿爸天父所做的第一件事 并不是管教，而是看见并满足我们的需要。

你的软弱是什么？你需要的是什么？

哥林多后书 12:9 他对我说：“我的恩典够你用的，因为我的能力是在人的软弱上显得完全。”所以，我更喜欢夸自己的软弱，好叫基督的能力覆庇我。

https://youtu.be/0ITbuwmi4OA

被爱

醒来的时候看到这椅子在身边

我想说，

我很感动…

因为有人理解我的失眠

晚上陪在我身边 哄我入睡

从来就没经历过别人对我如此温柔

如此的小心翼翼

我真的很感动

···

女生，

当一个男人爱你

他会尽全力给你安全感

赢取你的信任

全心全意尊重你

给你100%的坦诚

对你的温柔体贴绝不会吝啬

他不会是中央空调

他会明白你什么时候说“没关系”时 是有关系

他懂得你的情绪

他懂得你的疲惫

他允许你软弱，在他面前耍赖

感谢这位好友 

让我对我所要的爱情有了进一步的理解

-- 爱是永不止息 --

Part of Jessica's World

"I Don’t Wanna Live
In a Mini Mini World
몰랐던 세상을 알고 싶어서
한 번도 본 적 없는 Big Big World There
I Don’t Wanna Live
In A Mini Mini World
제자리에 멈춰 있기는 싫어
새롭게 다가오는 Big Big World Out There"

This album describes Jessica a lot. 

I love the lyrics and the arrangements

A thousand gold stars goes to you, Sica! 

You are amazing. 

这专辑里的歌曲 毛毛参与了好多，不论在作词作曲，让我对她有更深一层的仰慕！

除了Big Mini World 和 Dear Diary 不是毛毛的作品；

Fly , Love Me The Same , Golden Sky 由西卡作词作曲；

Falling Crazy In Love 则是西卡作词。

She is not just singing, but she has committed in every part and progress of producing these songs. 这都是灵魂啊！

https://youtu.be/iZpq8FjJr2E 

Sleepless

Well,

Just a quick update here.

having insomnia recently and i do not know why.

I was awake whole night

only until 6:30am I can finally sleep. Woke up an hour or two after that. 

No nightmares, no weird dreams

is 1:00am + now .

My brain is still very awake.

well, even if i go to bed now, I will still be awake until 6am So, there's no reason to go to bed now. 

It's been tough..

I don't know what to say.. no words can describe this feeling i feel in me.. 

I guess I should just wait for the right time to come.. :)

I wish that I could..

Think the only way to best describe my feelings is through music :

It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on

It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long

It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?

If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving

I remember the make-up running down your face

And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them

Like every single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia

And forget about the stupid little things

Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you

And the memories I never can escape

致 可爱的大家

爱
很复杂

不是每个人都可爱

受过的伤害

要爱？
真的很难

爱 要付出精神  时间
不是每个人都值得

但
你又有什么资格去判断
他  值不值得被爱呢？

你是谁？
你又值得被谁爱了？

愛是恆久忍耐，又有恩慈；愛是不嫉妒；愛是不自誇，不張狂，

不做害羞的事，不求自己的益處，不輕易發怒，不計算人的惡，

不喜歡不義，只喜歡真理；

凡事包容，凡事相信，凡事盼望，凡事忍耐。

愛是永不止息。

上帝
你是在开玩笑吗？

恒久忍耐？
凡事包容？
凡事忍耐？
凡事相信与盼望？

我怎么做到

爱

其实很简单

不是每个人都可爱

但是

其实每个人都有可爱的一面

我们都没资格去认定谁值得被谁爱

我也有限

我会生气

我会有讨厌人的时候

我会有被讨厌的时候

至少

在上帝的眼中

我是可爱的

我是宝贝的

亲爱的读者

其实你也是

你們願意人怎樣待你們，你們也要怎樣待人。

你們若單愛那愛你們的人，有什麼可酬謝的呢？就是罪人也愛那愛他們的人。

你們若善待那善待你們的人，有什麼可酬謝的呢？就是罪人也是這樣行。

你們若借給人，指望從他收回，有什麼可酬謝的呢？就是罪人也借給罪人，要如數收回。

你們倒要愛仇敵，也要善待他們，並要借給人不指望償還，你們的賞賜就必大了，你們也必作至高者的兒子；因為他恩待那忘恩的和作惡的。

爱那可爱的人

有什么困难

爱那对我们好的人

有什么困难啊

我的弟兄們，你們信奉我們榮耀的主耶穌基督，便不可按著外貌待人。

經上記著說：要愛人如己。你們若全守這至尊的律法，才是好的。

但你們若按外貌待人，便是犯罪，

多少次

我们以外表评论

一个人可爱的程度

多少次

我们自以为是

认为某某不值得我们爱

多少次

我们以为自己好伟大

多少次

其实

只要我们明白爱人如己

世界上就会少了许多

不可爱的人

你們聽見有話說：當愛你的鄰舍，恨你的仇敵。

只是我告訴你們，要愛你們的仇敵，為那逼迫你們的禱告。

上帝可爱吧？

总是让我们做那么困难的事

其实

爱很简单

爱要牺牲

即使被爱的对象多么不可爱

要为他祝福

靠自己呢

是一定不行的啦

人会累

会软弱

会跌到

会放弃

会失望

他對我說：我的恩典夠你用的，因為我的能力是在人的軟弱上顯得完全。所以，我更喜歡誇自己的軟弱，好叫基督的能力覆庇我。

爱

其实真的很简单

只要你爱的来源是对的

就是从神而来的

爱人

就像呼吸一样自然

爱人

就不看外表

爱

就把某某最好

最可爱的一面

带出来了

神=爱

愛是恆久忍耐，又有恩慈；愛是不嫉妒；愛是不自誇，不張狂，

不做害羞的事，不求自己的益處，不輕易發怒，不計算人的惡，

不喜歡不義，只喜歡真理；

凡事包容，凡事相信，凡事盼望，凡事忍耐。

愛是永不止息。

致  觉得自己不可爱的人

就是你們的頭髮也都被數過了；不要懼怕，你們比許多麻雀還貴重。

迷茫

一直以为自己放下了

直到被告白

才发现  原来

我一直在做的 是逃跑

因为面对

会发恶梦

心跳加速

冒冷汗

其实

凭什么…

因着初恋 对谎言

不论善意 或 恶意

都很抗拒

为什么 你明知道撒谎是不对的

也知道我接受不了

为什么

还一而再 再而三地 

考验我忍耐的底线 

是

是我笨

十个手指都数不清的谎言

暧昧

我

一直在原谅

一直在包容

一直为你找借口

对不起

我的错

宠坏了你

男神  你呢

把我从那谎言的噩梦中带出来

让我在你身上

投资了100%的信任

我对你 有100%的安全感

教导我许多东西

让我学会了独立  沟通  驾车

生活中的每个细节

都只有你最清楚

前任都不知道那么多

说我太善良

说怕会伤害我

……什么屁话

怎么突然消失了

怎么突然有了女朋友

怎么

为什么我就是生气不了

我哭不出来

对所有人的信任

直跌到谷底

痛

痛

痛

要我再相信人

呵

好像很困难

心

只为为我努力的人开

只为爱我疼我的人开

只为不滥用我的善良的人开

只为不撒谎的人开

只为全心全意待我的人开

You

Something you should know:

You were never a back-up plan and you never will be

You are the future 

You are The One and Only

You are the one that I want to spend my time with

You are the one that I want to share everything with

You are the one I can't afford to lose

**Heart You Deeply**

Learning to Let Go

It's been 71 day since those days

I dare not say that was completely miserable 

Nor will I say I was happy.

You were sincere before we started our relationship Which I though it will be the most beautiful relationship
I thought it will last..
I thought.
doesn't matter what i thought now.

Now it seems like we are never going back

I remember that day when i asked to break up.
i never mention about breaking up every time you hurt me. 
... well, maybe i did warn you about i may not be able to continue a relationship like this if this happen again
But again and again.. 
Forgive, Patience, Love
HOPE..
My friends pity me
You failed me, but i took a step back instead of confront.

Others may ask "Why don't you confront"
well, HAHAHA
How many times I've confronted ? How many times I'd talk to you about it?
What happen next?
I apologized for not capable to handle your ego. 
I apologized for not trusting in you which made you lie to me.
I apologized for being not good enough to you that you need other girls to satisfy your wants.
What a joke!
When I asked to break up, you were so shocked. 
You thought I'm going to be the HAPPY girlfriend and keep quiet for what you've done to hurt me?

I feel so relieved 
I do not need to be afraid anymore. 
Say goodbye to nightmares and to lies


This is the summary of the summarized summary. 

Faith - Hope - Love

Love Is In The Air

"You never know when you'll find 

What your heart is yearning for

All you seek could be there

Just a breath away"-- Barbie

!Happy Anniversary!

yesterday , 15th Jan 12:00a.m. was our anniversary! 

Super happy. hahaha..

Thank you

..for the LOVE you gave

..for CARING when I do not feel well

..for UNDERSTANDing when my emotional swings

..for being a LOYAL driver that never complain about distance

..for being a great MOVIE PARTNER 

..for STAYing after the ups and downs

..for all the JOKES you told to make me happy

..for PRAYING

..for EVERYTHING 

We both know we are still going through some downs

we are praying and searching the way

Things will be different, will be better

I still TREASURE the time we spent together

I still APPRECIATE the lessons we learnt from downs

Let Jesus Be The Center Of Our Relationship

"It's magic, when you are here beside me 
Close your eyes, and let me hold you tight 
Everything that I could ever need is 
Right here in my arms tonight "--Barbie

Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life.

约3:3 耶稣回答说、我实实在在的告诉你、人若不重生、就不能见　神的国。

约一5:12 人有了　神的儿子就有生命．没有　神的儿子就没有生命。

约14:6 耶稣说、我就是道路、真理、生命．若不借着我、没有人能到父那里去。

约3:16 　神爱世人、甚至将他的独生子赐给他们、叫一切信他的、不至灭亡、反得永生。

约17:3 认识你独一的真　神、并且认识你所差来的耶稣基督、这就是永生。

来11:1 信就是所望之事的实底、是未见之事的确据。

约6:47 我实实在在的告诉你们、信的人有永生。

朋友，你信吗？2014年，就让耶稣来带领你，给你平安，给你喜乐。

Love

Happy 300th days .
Thanks for being there through out the goodS and the badS .
Thanks for being patient with a girl like me.
Thanks for accepting me just for who I am.
Thanks for being YOU.
I love you ~

You are born to be loved

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5MRH5oNG7hA&feature=youtube_gdata_player

Love it!
Dear all, you are born to be love. And because of you, we are happy.
God is love.

Psalm 诗篇23

诗篇23
1 耶和华是我的牧者．我必不至缺乏。
2 他使我躺卧在青草地上、领我在可安歇的水边。
3 他使我的灵魂苏醒、为自己的名引导我走义路。
4 我虽然行过死荫的幽谷、也不怕遭害．因为你与我同在．你的杖、你的竿、都安慰我。
5 在我敌人面前、你为我摆设筵席．你用油膏了我的头、使我的福杯满溢。
6 我一生一世必有恩惠慈爱随着我．我且要住在耶和华的殿中、直到永远。

音乐一开始，这篇从一岁半就熟背的经文从脑海闪过。背了两遍，到了第三遍竟然想不起第二节。一直祷告说怎么可能会忘记？心很急，怎么第一遍和第二遍明明记忆还在，只相隔不到三十秒的时间却忘了。内心一直呼喊神，让我想起！

过后翻了电话里的圣经。

" 他使我躺卧在青草地上"

看了我忘的这一节，立刻领受了一句话:
"敬慧，你要休息，不要慌，看我。"

有多少时候我们只顾着忙，忘了神就是力量，忘了亲近祂，忘了仰望祂？

"他使我的灵魂苏醒 "
祂能更新我们的灵，赐我们力量重新站起来，使我们重新得力！

谢谢祢，让我重新了解祢的心意，就是要回到祢的怀里，以祢的标准为我的标准。
" 我且要住在耶和华的殿中、直到永远。"

Half-Year . Stress end? Just started

Though but sweet,

Because of Him.

Today is day 192 :)

in between

there's 86 days where he was at National Service

Hard time. 

But yet, we've been through 

Guess what,

We are preparing and praying hard for next week.

He need to meet my parents officially and have a talk.

Is kinda easy for others but not my parents.

they are normal parents with special identity. 

What kind of questions a pastor will ask? 

Stress!

Pray Hard

I think we will be okay~ 

First Semester of Diploma in Early Childhood Education end!

After three weeks, say hi to the second semester.

In this three weeks, 

I will just stay home,

relax

Enjoy

Get enough sleep

and have Healthy Life Style

before the unhealthy life style forced to begin again.

I Thank God for Everything He Gave :)

Holiday!

After three months of suffering,

I'm now FREE!

Just for three Weeks ~

After that will be the second semester.

My holiday mode started officially on Monday, 22th July, where I went to Mid Valley with my friends ~

Watched movie , enjoy Korean chicken bibimbap, chatime and COTTON CANDY .

AMAZING!

after that,

Another movie at his house and enjoy dinner with his family!

Laugh Out Loud

What a day, what a relieve ~

God has been with me throughout the whole semester,

That is why I'm still alive now ~

Receive a lot of love and strength in prayer meeting yesterday :)

I thank God for His love
I thank God for His peace
I thank God for His grace
I thank God for His mercy

Best Friends' song

Two Voices

Is so rare to find a friend like you
Somehow when you're around
The sky is always blue

The way we talk , the things you said
The way you make it all okay
And how yoI know all of my jokes
But you laugh anyway

If I could wish for one thing
I'll take the smile that you bring
Wherever you go in this world
I'll come along

Together we dream the same dream
Forever
I'm here for you
You're here for me
Ooh ~ two voices one song

Messages of The Week

箴言14:33 智慧存在聪明人心中，愚昧人心里所存的，显而易见 。

美国幽默大师——马克·土温

“如果有人要打你的话，你应该…

毅然决然地脱下你的外衣， 一面用坚定的眼神注视他的眼睛

然后再镇静地脱下你的背心，

然后又在慢慢举起你的袖子，

而你的眼睛必须盯着他的眼睛，

如果到了这个时候

你的对手仍然不走的话

那么。。。

你最好是掉头跑掉！”

要有前进的勇气，也要有退后的智慧！

希伯来书 11:25 他宁可和神的百姓同受苦害，也不愿暂时享受罪中之乐。

犹太教的安息日规定信徒不可以在安息日做事，

可是有一位犹太拉比很爱打高尔夫球。

在一个晴朗的安息日下午，

这位拉比手痒难耐，决定偷偷的打九个洞就好

到了球场，

一个犹太人都没有，

他甚高兴，因无人晓得他跑来打球。

天使看他不守规矩，就向上帝告状

上帝说必定好好惩罚他！

九个洞打完了，

每个洞都是一杆进洞！

拉比很高兴，决定再打九个洞

天使忿忿不平问上帝为何还没惩罚？

上帝笑而不答。

打完十八个洞，情况还是一样。

拉比简直乐透了！ 高高兴兴地走回家。

天使很生气地问上帝: “这就是你所说的惩罚吗？”

上帝笑笑说：

“你想想，他回去能和谁说呢？”

上帝有时任凭我们享受罪中之乐，往往一时似乎十分顺利，

但不久就会发现那种乐趣并不好玩， 反成了痛苦的源头。

Green.Grow

Someone once told me, "Changing is Uncomfortable"

Now only i know. 

Am now going through another chapter of life,

COLLEGE

Tired. Busy. Emotional. 

In each stage of  changing 

I slept more than i used to.

But

college life do not allow me to have a good rest.

Assignment

Presentation

Revision

Test

!Exam!

They made my life colourful

Well,

To grow up, 

you need to undergo an uncomfortable stage 

where you leave your comfort zone 

to explore more about life

To find,

you must first seek.

To enter,

you must first knock, or open the door.

Every first step needs a lot of courage.

Every Step Counts, 

This is part of Growing. 

As ye have therefore received Christ Jesus the Lord,

So walk ye in Him.

Colossians 2:6

I'm lucky to be ME

I lost myself today, all work no time to play
I'm holding on to what I know. Then this discovery
Blindfolded,I could see
I'm catching on by letting go.

And now I'm rising up, no coming down
So hang on for the ride.

Look how high we can fly
Look how high we can fly
WE can see everything
From up here in the sky
We've got the perfect view
Together me and you
Look how high we can fly

Words comes so easily
Hard to believe it's me
With every breath the feeling grows.
Take time to make time stop
Unplug, turn off the clock
The less you try the more it flows

I don't need to live in a fancy castle
That isn't where I should be
Open up my heart and where it leads I'll follow
Up high where I can be free.

Look how high we can fly
Look how high we can fly
We can see everything from up here in the sky
Look how high we can fly
Look how high we can fly
We can surf on the wind
So completely alive
There's nothing we can't do
Together me and you
Look how high we can fly

I found myself today and now I'm glad to say
I'm living life straight from the heart
Oh, what a gift to see, I'm lucky to be me
And now I just can't wait to start

I keep on rising up
No coming down
So hang on for the ride

Look how high we can fly
Look how high we can fly
It's a beautiful view from up here in the sky
There's nothing we can't do
Together me and you, look how high we can fly